Online identity?

My online identity:

Who I am online is more or less who I am in real life- or a more organized, established, less impulsive version of myself.

The thing about computers is that it works on data. Input. If there is no input, then there is no data created. My internet identity is a compilation of text, photos and videos. Being online, I am given the power to choose how I act and react, to choose what I approve to be “me”, and to choose to leave out the rest as “not me”.

Generally (in real life and online), I’m a stereotypical “nice guy”. For example, I don’t curse online. Rather, I try not to unless absolutely necessary- where the cultural context of the word is stronger than any other word I could have thought of using. This is due to my belief on text and permanence. Like I mentioned earlier, computers (and, consequently, the internet) work on input. Since any input is a choice- I try to be a lot more careful with what I say, understanding that anything I type out is a choice, permanent and “approved”. I often take time to gather my thoughts- most concepts meanings and ideas that I wish to convey are often debated to avoid miscommunication. Seeing it in front of me, begging the consideration of choice, makes me feel a little more liable/ guilty. Personally, while I do believe that cursing works to convey feeling (more on the curse words’ cultural context), I believe there are better things to say than to say something someone normally would out of impulse. I’m sure we've all had our share of things said that we wish we could take back. Anyway, I do curse, but, given the choice, I’d like to curse less. This shows on my social networking sites and even in my “anonymous/hidden” blogs. Even in chat, I am careful with what I say or what I talk about, in blogs I am careful with what I post or repost.

example of what I post and repost: (oneday--soon.tumblr.com)

this is an example of what I post. (things I post both in my social networks and show my friends etc. in real life as well. - originals. snapshots of "my life". hehe.)

(spontaneous-tendencies.tumblr.com)

I will explain what I mean by “hidden blogs”. I have multiple blogs where I let out my feelings, where I talk about the things I wish I could say but, for one reason or another, could not or cannot. Most of my posts talk about love interests- the “how I wish you knew”s. Most of these are things I wish I could say- but also things I could not say on the spot. A lot of these are also “me”, thinking out loud, making sense of my feelings, airing them out to the community, making the most out of the internet’s anonymity. This, however is still me. Often, these are more “organized”, more “artistic” or more “concentrated” expression of the things I talk about in person. 

example:

music:

All in all, however, this is also me. While I am not as impulsively or immediately “creative/articulate”, I do have a knack for communication, for writing- “artistic expression”. I put quotation marks on it for the mere reason that this falls under my definition of artistic. More emotionally driven and emotion-oriented ways/avenues of expression. An itch. I really do write and, in some rare occasions, I spout one-liners related to life or love or some tragedy or, as the common term is used: “hugot”.

I would be lying, I guess if I said that the exact person I am online is how I am when I’m around others. I’m me, though. The things I write or post online are things I would write or say in the confidence of myself or someone I’m really close to. The impulsive emotion-heavy topics are just as present online as they are offline. What makes the internet different, I guess, is that I find an instant avenue to “talk about/release” said impulsive emotion-heavy topics. As opposed to waiting for someone to talk to (which would often require “leading up to the topic of conversation. I don’t like just dropping off my baggage). But again. I often try to portray my offline self online- as I do try to portray my “more relaxed, more confident” online self, online. 

personal websites:

oneday--soon.tumblr.com

spontaneous-tendencies.tumblr.com

spontaneous--tendencies.tumblr.com

soundcloud.com/mictest